He has taken us down a path the last 4-6 weeks financially that I wasn't sure we would survive. Yet He has proven to me each time that He has a plan and when I've exhausted all of my means, HE will make a way but it's always in a way that we think it's impossible and then there it is... unexpectedly. Sometimes, I am so stressed, scared and worried that I forget to even reach out to God in a verbal prayer, yet He knows my hearts cry and He understands.
Other times, like Sunday night, I just prayed a simple prayer. There was no mighty move of God with thunder & lightening, I didn't get up and run around or shout a jig. I just prayed a prayer! Simple as that! I thanked Him for what He has done for us in the last few weeks of holding us when we were falling apart, catching us as we fell, loving me when I felt all alone and unloveable. Then I reminded Him of the ways my family members are working for Him, we volunteer & minister in different way. We are living life in the best way we know how, learning our lessons, passing our tests and learning to lean on Him & TRUST!!! In like 5 minutes that prayer was answered. I had tears in my eyes as I realized one more time God had reached down and proved His love & showed me I can rest in Him & trust. I'm on a journey, I don't know what all He has for me, but I do know that the way is a little clearer than it was a few weeks ago, He feels a little closer than He was yesterday. I'm still learning, learning to take care of my "temple", learning to love myself, learning to not lean to others opinions of me for affirmation or my self esteem. Just to be me, to be the best me I can with God's help.
