Ugh!!! Somedays...

There are somedays that life just seems to much to take anymore. You get tired of everyone else feeling free to laze around, be "sick", etc. Then you are expected to pick up the extra load no one else wants to deal with. You just wanna say, I'm through. I get so frustrated and so angry, it hurts when no one thinks of others, you just wanna pack their stuff up and move them onto the curb. Do it on your own like you are now and see where it gets you? I'm tired of it all.

So I close my eyes tight and I wish a wish that my prince charming will come riding up on his big white horse and whisk me away to a land far away where the chaos in my life now will be but a memory.

Seriously, sometimes you have to wonder why God puts you through stuff when it "looks" like others lives are so much more care-free. If I was skinny I would have been married with a bus full of children according to others, instead I suffer with PCOS which makes sure I struggle to stay where I'm at much less lose weight. How do you compare to the beautiful Barbies of the world? I get tired of them being paraded in front of me as what is so desirable by men? I can't help that my body isn't made like theirs!!!

I finally found a diet plan people are using and I'm all alone doing it. I have to work in the kitchen around all the stuff I can't eat to fix stuff that about half the time isn't fit to eat. I want to eat what you eat, I want to drink what you drink, it's good, taste wise but it's no good for my body. Even a little bit makes a difference in my body, I have found. I struggle with so many insecurities wondering how I'll ever be good enough, look good enough, eat good enough, live in a good enough house when it feels like I'm the only one who cares.

That's all!