Getting Life Back On Track

So I kinda got derailed in life and went through a bumpy patch but with God's help it's all going to get back on track again. Sometimes things in life overwhelm you or people hurt you and if you can't find a way to work through it, it will overtake you. The hurt will consume you and make you withdraw into your self where no one else can reach you and in your mind you won't be hurt anymore but it's funny how you can build walls so big and thick and tall and people that want to help you can't find a way in yet the hurt keeps coming. It's when you pull down the walls and let people in and make yourself vulnerable that you can begin to heal those wounds. You have to also begin a process of learning to not let those same situations or people continue to hurt you, you have to find a way to seperate yourself even at times cutting ties with those people.

Get Connected Singles Conference

Enjoying a nice holiday Monday!!!! Always nice to have a day off and no where to go, nothing to do but catch up on house work. LOL.

Had a good weekend at Get Connected Conference in Harker Heights. I went kinda grudgingly, LOL, Been just kinda blah in that area. LOL. I'm content in my singleness for now.

I was so blessed by Bro. Jason Sciscoe's messages. The Wrong Side of Fear and I can't remember his title on Saturday but the messages are those that stick with you for a lifetime.

Never be ashamed of your singleness, it's hard because you have to endure so many comments and questions and it's hard to believe that there isn't something wrong with you but God's Word never lies so it's settled, all the hurt, rejection, failures are blessings because they are directing me and leading me into what God has for me. My single years are the years I can put my focus on God.

Can't wait for my USB of the services arrive... I see those 2 messages on repeat on my iPad as I walk and jog. I think it's starting to dawn on me that if I'll start the process God will finish it. He cares about me and He sees all my tears and hurts and like Bro. Sciscoe prayed over me, God is healing my brokenness and when He is done healing me I will look back and see the blessings in my brokenness.

So I'll begin to go up the mountain because you can't stay on the plains, you have to go UP to meet with God. Funny how all that you want and it seems it should be so simple and yet it's always in the future. I'm about to change things in my life, I've got to get myself back to the basics of what I was raised on, Loving God, everything has got to be about Him. I know what I've got to do but it's easier to "know it" than it is to "do it".

So God and I are about to start a journey together. I've learned that I'm OK as a single, I can survive it. LOL. I've got to have His Power, His Glory, His Anointing and it always comes with a price, am I willing to pay it???

Update

So, the whole house deal is sooooooo slow. It only takes money and it just seems there isn't enough to get it all done, you know?

I feel like a body with no home, I'm sleeping on a strange bed OR a recliner, just got too hot out there. It's depressing, I've not even been out there for a week. Sad but true. However, I do plan to work on my house Saturday. My plan was to get the ditch trenched for my underground wiring but it's rained so much and rain is in the forcast so the clay is just too moist. So probably, hopefully finances work out for a little bit of insulation to go in. I have GOT to get it liveable so that my nerves can get to normal and I'll feel like I belong again.

Today I learned one of my favorite authors finally has a new book out!!! YES!!!! Come on Dee Henderson. LOL.

Ready or Not I'm IN!!!

So, I moved in my place. LOL. No insulation and only a window unit, I'm in and it's mine that is ALL I care about!!!

Tomorrow I'm going to hopefully get a little insulation and sheet-rock in. LOL. Gotta do something it is unbearable during the daytime. Nights are fine, it gets chilly in here but daylight hours are a bit rougher. I jokingly say I'm living the primitive life and truly I am!! Haha. I have 1 lamp and my window unit and my belongings. You know I feel so much more peaceful and happy just me and my own little house named G. The company I bought the cabin from was named Graceland so all their buildings have a G on them. LOL.

I had it all laid out for my bedroom and closet idea and I guess I didn't have a clue what I owned. LOL. So my bedroom is sort of a closet. Instead of a closet in my bedroom I'm going to end up with a bed in my closet. HAHA. I just hope I figure out how to get a twin bed in there. Hehe.

Gonna run on to lala land. Tomorrow holds a full day of organizing and though I want to sleep late if I'm smart I'll be up as soon as the sun is bright enough to start working and get it all organized and a big chunk of my insulation up. It would be nice to stay cool all of the time. LOL.

It has been brought to my attention...

I've not posted recent pictures of my house. It lacks alot to be finished, It'll be a year I'm sure before it gets close to totally finished but it's mine and everything in it has been decided by me!!! I wish I could snap my fingers and it would just be done but it's alright...

Here are just a few of the blocks waiting for my house to arrive. LOL. I was sore for days!!!

Here she is, FINALLY!!! My most longed for dream... LOL. My OWN house!!! It's small but perfect for me.

Here the guy is that delivered my house. Very fascinating to watch him at work. I want that Mule!!!

Here we are celebrating my new house. My niece and nephews LOVED it!!!

I just love this young man!!! He is so serious and wanted to help, he was ready to start building the day it arrived. LOL. Said he just needed a tape measure, a pencil and a little wood. LOL.

I now own some pretty cool equipment. LOL. Who'da thunk it???

My brother and sister in law have helped me make my decisions and come up with ideas. My brother is awesome!!!! He has done a great job helping make everything perfect, or almost. HAHA

Landon wanted to help too. :-)

Rowdy was ready to help too. Problem was he was taking stuff out of the house. LOL.

Here is my brother and nephew hard at work on the wall for my bedroom & closet.

Allyson & Landon had the hard job of eating the ice cream.

Gavin is so strong, he was moving boards and taking in all the building. Miss my Papaw Rent, he built so many things for us as kids. Boy he could give us tips I'm sure. I think he would be proud of the work Chantry & Gavin did.

Bedroom wall almost ready to go up!!!!

Bedroom & Bathroom walls are up and now to wait for electric!!

The most beautiful site ever!!! My framed walls.

My very own electric meter. I could have just cried!!! Next run electric in the house!!!

The electric is ran inside my house now. Next is getting the ditch dug for the lines from the meter to my breaker box. Then I'll be serious about getting moved in. 

Looking at flooring. These samples are sitting on my dining room table. Starting to looking into decisions on flooring and paint.

That is about it for now. Next thing is the main line from the meter to the breaker box and that is the "pricey" part for now. LOL. Hopefully I can get that finished up by the end of the month... I'm hoping to have the bedroom/closet insulated & for the most part finished. 

I'm trying to move in on my birthday July 28th. I'm hoping but we shall see...

So much to do guess it's why we have 5 year plans??? So much to do and decide still. Cabinets, colors, toilet, LOL, bathtub, fixtures, lights, oh dear me... I'll never get it all done.

Well, night to all. Gomer Pyle is about to humor me to sleep. :-)

Waiting Game!!!

Well, I'm patiently waiting for my cabin to arrive. I think I'm much closer to finalizing the inside layout. Getting excited and a little scared. LOL. Shouldn't be much longer before it's ready to deliver. I'm getting excited. It has been many a moon since I felt like I had something to dream for or something worth dreaming. I feel content inside like, I'm OK. Regardless of what else happens, I'm all good now. LOL.

So here are a few pics of my place. I have so many ideas rolling around in my head.

 This will soon be my home!!! Can't wait, I'm so excited. I had a moment where I really struggled and hard. I have prayed and planned and dreamed about this very moment and the week I went out and started looking another family member did also. I shan't lie, it was HARD because everything I say or do has to be one up'd. I can't dream or think out loud because it's always gonna be overtaken. I hate competition and don't understand why people have to do that. You've had your many chances give me my 1 chance. Oh well.

 The above pic the middle part of the cabin. The middle space is 12x20 and has a front porch you can see in the first pic that is 4x20. I can just imagine my little window boxes with flowers in them. :-)

 Above is the "kitchen" or at least a little bit of it. There is a space on each end that is 16x10 and 1 end is the kitchen/dining and the other is bedroom/bathroom.

The rafters are in and it's ready for a ceiling!!! It is really a great building. Built with hurricane clips so it will stand up better in high winds. I chose to have a green metal roof (come on rainstorm!!!) in their metal roofs they have circulation vents in the peak (you can see above) and then around the building where the eaves/walls meet. It helps keep the building cooler in the summer and warmer in the winter. The floors are built with 2x6's instead of 2x4's. That is awesome. So now it's just waiting and planning. Sigh, someday soon I'll have my own little place to call mine!!! That will be a great day.

So Dreams DO Come True!!!

So within the next month I should have my little cabin sitting on my land. As long as it doesn't rain between now and delivery day. I'm already working on pricing and getting everything ready to complete the bedroom area. That is the first step in the inside is the electric wiring and then complete the bedroom so I can MOVE IN!!! I can not tell you how excited I am. I know it's going to take a long time to get it all completed because my savings and tax refund are getting the cabin here and the bedroom finished.

You know just under a year ago I prayed with a few ladies at church that God would lead and guide me and give me a place of my own. :-) Yes, God answers prayers. Shows that He cares about even the little things in our lives but He does things in His time!!!

I think back over the last couple years and I'm amazed that God has over time given me so many things that I now need and I can mark those costs off my list. Someday some of it will be replaced but that is OK and God will make a way. Funny to think back 3 years and realize how unhappy and miserable I was single and then God led me right to a church where my singleness is celebrated, they don't care! Gives you the feeling that someone does care. I don't have to have a family to be important to God and to be used of God. Amazing!!!

It's been a loooooooooong time since I sat down at a computer and dreamed knowing it's going to slowly unfold and plan out what I want. Sigh!!!

So follow me the next few months, maybe years. HAHA. As I begin to build my dream and live out a part of life I never thought would happen.