So time for catch up blog. LOL

So much has happened since I last wrote a blog. I’m so blessed by God, He amazes me!!!

Incredible to realize that we are 1 month into 2012 already WOW!!!

So, I’ll start with we had great holidays and then I promptly got really sick, still fighting this mess off. Like a really bad cold. It’s a viral infection and just hangs on forever.

Lost my help at work and regained it quickly. The 2 weeks of extra hours wasn’t too shabby. LOL. Especially with what I’ve gotten myself into now. Hehe

So I looked around at houses for sale and rent, checked out apartments and then unfinished cabins. I’m buying an unfinished cabin and placing it on my parents property. It will be delivered end of February or first of March and I’ll be ready to start on the inside. It’s 16x30 so it’ll be a nice size and I’ll have a bedroom, bathroom in the back and the kitchen/dining & Living area will be in the front part of it. I’m pretty excited. The reason for my decision is it will be paid off in 3 years. A house note would be around 30 years. If I get married, I can rent out my cabin. So that is the plan.

Starting out I have 2 HUGE things to begin with, getting my cabin and we have to have a new electric line put in. Could cost up to $1700, just some pocket change right?? LOL. But Stephanie is in the Little House and Teresa is getting her and Katy a cabin also. So we will all be pitching in and so the cost of the pole won’t be so hard on just 1 person and we will all be splitting the electric bill.

I’m excited. I’ve wanted my own place for a long time and was too scared to actually step out and do it. This way I’m close to my family and yet have my own space.  It will look like I want it to look and it may take me a couple years to finish it all out but that is OK.

My plan is to get the bedroom area finished FAST. Walls and ceiling up, electric ran and finished to that room, I have a window unit already and get all that insulated. I can then move in and finish it out slowly but surely. I want it to all be perfect yet just how I want it.

Now to just plan wisely to make the $$ stretch. LOL

2012 is almost HERE!!!

I can not believe it is almost 2012. Incredible!!! 2011 flew by way too fast yet too slow. LOL. Been some ups but a few lows too. So much changed in our life, for good and bad. Dad's sickness and yet I experienced so many "healings" in my life!!!

Last year I don't think I even made any resolutions and this year, I think I will change that this year. I can't even begin to share it all.

So this year I want to find a closer walk with God, to just let it all go and just serve Him with everything in me. More prayer and reading His Word, to stay involved in my local church. Reach out more to those that are hurting and searching. Love more, judge less!!! I want to see God move in a deep and mighty way, I've seen it before and I want it again!!!

In my personal life, I'm asking God to help me gain control of my life better, He helped me last year but I want more this year. I have learned to be happy in my singleness and though I don't grin and celebrate all the time, (I still hate baby and wedding showers) I am OK now. So I want to find a way to take control of my stress and not let food control my emotions, not be the answer to my bad/sad days. I need strength from God to help me stay with a healthy diet and exercise!!! So come income tax return I'm buying the Xbox Kinect. Hopefully the fun will help. Haha

Whew!! Been busy as a bee.

Lots of life being lived and loved!!!

Been very busy with church ministries, conferences, work and most importantly home!!!

Thinking on selling the horse, no time to work with him. I just stay sooooo busy. Got alot coming up and can't wait to see what God has for my future. Just a short blog to let you know I'm not dead, just really crazy busy.

Easter 2011

What a Day!!!!!

Started out really early this morning alarm went off at 5:30am. LOL. Yea!! I know it's way early!!! Sound check was at 8:15 this morning and then a Easter Service that was awesome. The kiddos did great with the puppets, praise team and choir, I love hearing kids sing they are so honest and sincere, and of course over the top in cuteness!!!

Our Encounter video, that video just makes me cry, there I go before my encounter. Just everyday life with everyday people and then one day EVERYDAY changed because a unique and awesome God turned my life upside down. It was "my encounter"

The choir and sign team and then a dynamic message from our Pastor!!! All roads lead to the cross...
It was so cool to look out and see almost all of my family in the audience, aunts and cousins and family. Really fun!!!

We baptized 1 girl today, it was a overall great Easter Service.

Then after visiting with friends we headed home to have a scrumpcious dinner with all our family. We were missing 1 group. It makes my heart sad, even in all the fun and happiness, there is a empty place. God knows I've prayed over this and He has heard my cry. I wrote this last night and posted it I feel like changing it, maybe it's God leading me, maybe I'm just weird. I've been close to a few ladies at church and they have shown me a godly, prayful woman can do, I am trying to follow their leading and I respect them greatly.

So today I'm gonna be different.

God, this morning I come before you humble and broken, I know I'm nothing without you. I ask that you reach down and touch my family. Heal the broken pieces of our hearts and lives. You see all things, you know our hearts even the parts we don't know ourselves. You see our pasts and you know the hurt and trials this family has endured in the past. You see all our imperfections and you care and you love. I know that You know what it takes to bring a family to their knees in order to stand tall for you. God I ask right now that you bless and hold close every member. I rebuke the bitterness and the pain and the hurt in Jesus Name. I refuse to allow the devil to come in and lay claim to my family. I plead the blood over every adult and child. You see the pain You hear our pleas and You see our tears and You feel our pain. Lead us to peace and joy and love. God right now I ask that You stop those that try to bring harm or pain, When they rise up, block their path. I once again ask that You bless each person and bring love and unity to every part. I

I know what our family could be, look what we've become in just the last year or so and the devil HATES it, he wants us stopped. He's wanted to stop us because he knows if he doesn't find a way to drag us down he will lose because we want to work for You and that we are willing to serve in any way no matter how big or small. I'm asking that you foil his plans, destroy them!!! He is a liar, and he thinks he can play the same little trick in our family again but I say NO, I will stand up against him if I'm all alone, he WILL NOT DESTORY MY FAMILY!!! I sick and tired of his antics and games, I have given my life to Christ, I've renewed my vows to God and I will serve him with my whole heart, wherever He leads me I'm going, if a door closes I will stop, if a door opens I will go through that door regardless of where it leads me because I only want what You, God, want for me. I believe at that Ladies Prayer meeting you directed a sister to come and pray over me not only concerning my health but when she begin to pray over my future and the direction for my life. That doors would close and to not fear, let them close and stop and not walk through them. That the new doors that would open would be greater than anything I could imagine and to not fear but to walk through those doors as you open them. To let nothing stop me. That the plans YOU have for my life were unfolding before me right now and I can't see it yet but soon. So I know that You care and are listening to my heartfelt prayer.

Now God, I wait on You, your the healer and the provider. I ask it all in Jesus Name.  Amen.

New Year and Moving Forward

So I decided to start the New Year off right, I get so frustrated with people who lag behind and are lazy, etc. Plus, I've been so busy the last couple of months that I've not been able to keep up with my stuff, gets out of control and then my OCD can't figure it all out. Sooo,  I decided to turn over a new leaf if you will. I am trying to get to bed earlier and when my alarm goes off at 6am, I don't hit the snooze. This is Day 3 of this newness and I want to snuggle back down in my bed but I'm not. My room is nice, clean and organized and getting to the point I want it. I'll just keep on trudging and maybe it will become habit and not a drag. LOL.

This week is a week of prayer at church and OMW!!! What an awesome prayer meeting. I was so awesome to see the young people really praying, and it was nice to take out an hour at church to just pray. So many things in my life I've been praying about lately and sometimes I get a little discouraged because as I pray about things, seems others begin to begin to talk down to my dreams. They may not know it but they do. We aren't going to all be alike and we aren't all going to have the same ideas, but it's not right to expect me to be like you and the rest can do as they will. I'm not like you... I get so frustrated about it all and I just do not understand.

Then at the end of prayer Pastor Foster called us all to the front and began to challenge us to be closer to God, to desire miracles and powerful things, the anointing. Then he asked me to come up, ME. He said that God is going to do what I've been praying about, that at that moment it was to give me an assurance. I hate being in front of everyone but Sis Kathy & Sis Darla began to pray with me and I am still amazed that God cares that much!!! To call me out in a prayer meeting to let me know He still hears and cares and I'm not all alone. Now to just focus on moving forward!!! Waiting for my miracle.

A Good Day

Well, today was a good day, after a shaky start ended up a good day. God came through and worked out what could have been a disaster in our lives and made it all OK. Then we got a letter from CPS, they dismissed all charges ("someone" turned Teresa in on a bunch of phony charges) said there was no sign at all of anything. They will not be out again unless you-know-who decides to be a butt again. The thanksgiving dinner at church went good. We served 150ish people in under 30 minutes. That isn't bad. It was so much fun, we made new friends and got to know others better. I was pleased with the way it all went. Renewed that little dream I used to have of having a event planning service. Sigh, but is the sore muscles worth it?? LOL.

Thanksgiving was awesome!!! Just our little group at Chantry's place. Mom, Dad, Nanny, Teresa, Katy, Chantry, Tiffany, Gavin, Allyson, Landon and me. I went early and spent the whole day, we had a good time cooking and laughing. The kiddos "helped" me out with buttering the pans for the rolls and all. Then we shared a whole jar of marschino cherries!!! Then the kids drank the juice. We had a laugh at Gavin when at 8pm Chantry gave him a glass of Pepsi and Gavin goes "I like Thanksgiving it's a good day". He liked staying up late drinking all you can drink soda's and desserts. LOL. Tiffany and I played American Idol, Guitar Hero and Beatles Band on the Wii, while the guys watched football, BORING... Stephanie and Robert came out late evening. Then we played Beatles with Chantry, hooked up both guitars, drums and all 3 mics and had a great time. Didn't leave until after 1am. I have to agree with Gavin, it was a good day.

Yesterday we shopped preparing for Christmas parties. Today was another good day. I spent most of the day holed up in my room, I scrubbed every inch of the bathroom, did laundry and then organized my books and DVD's. Everything looks so nice and smells good. Got Spooch outside on the end of the house, Hayleigh and Delaynie are locked in the backyard now all the time!!! Can I say it again? It's been a good day.

I had my iPod going with my favorite tunes and I felt so much happiness and peace. Awesome!!!

It's Thanksgiving Time!!!

So I don't write often anymore. Lots going on and I seem to write better when I've got worry and stress inside. Got worrisome news tonight, even as the fear of the unknown washed over me I felt the peace of God and a calm settled over me. Now an hour after going to bed, I'm wide awake, not really because I'm so scared. I am a analytical person so I'm struggling with the desire to sit down and make a plan to work it all out. I guess there is fear inside because I've walked this road before and I don't know if we can do it again and survive. They say the hardships you go through build strength.

What a way to start Thanksgiving week, huh? I have much to be thankful for... An awesome church and church family and Pastor & Family. I have friends who love me and family all around. We have been super busy planning and preparing for the All Church Thanksgiving Meal!!! It's coming along and I think it will be good. I've gotten involved in so many things, God has been so good to me. I know He will protect me and keep me through everything I must go through. God has never led me through anything that looking back I can't see His hand in it all. I have to trust that He will never leave me. I know that this could very possibly change our world but He knows my name, He knows the way I feel, He feels my hurts and sees my pain.