Waiting Game!!!

Well, I'm patiently waiting for my cabin to arrive. I think I'm much closer to finalizing the inside layout. Getting excited and a little scared. LOL. Shouldn't be much longer before it's ready to deliver. I'm getting excited. It has been many a moon since I felt like I had something to dream for or something worth dreaming. I feel content inside like, I'm OK. Regardless of what else happens, I'm all good now. LOL.

So here are a few pics of my place. I have so many ideas rolling around in my head.

 This will soon be my home!!! Can't wait, I'm so excited. I had a moment where I really struggled and hard. I have prayed and planned and dreamed about this very moment and the week I went out and started looking another family member did also. I shan't lie, it was HARD because everything I say or do has to be one up'd. I can't dream or think out loud because it's always gonna be overtaken. I hate competition and don't understand why people have to do that. You've had your many chances give me my 1 chance. Oh well.

 The above pic the middle part of the cabin. The middle space is 12x20 and has a front porch you can see in the first pic that is 4x20. I can just imagine my little window boxes with flowers in them. :-)

 Above is the "kitchen" or at least a little bit of it. There is a space on each end that is 16x10 and 1 end is the kitchen/dining and the other is bedroom/bathroom.

The rafters are in and it's ready for a ceiling!!! It is really a great building. Built with hurricane clips so it will stand up better in high winds. I chose to have a green metal roof (come on rainstorm!!!) in their metal roofs they have circulation vents in the peak (you can see above) and then around the building where the eaves/walls meet. It helps keep the building cooler in the summer and warmer in the winter. The floors are built with 2x6's instead of 2x4's. That is awesome. So now it's just waiting and planning. Sigh, someday soon I'll have my own little place to call mine!!! That will be a great day.

So Dreams DO Come True!!!

So within the next month I should have my little cabin sitting on my land. As long as it doesn't rain between now and delivery day. I'm already working on pricing and getting everything ready to complete the bedroom area. That is the first step in the inside is the electric wiring and then complete the bedroom so I can MOVE IN!!! I can not tell you how excited I am. I know it's going to take a long time to get it all completed because my savings and tax refund are getting the cabin here and the bedroom finished.

You know just under a year ago I prayed with a few ladies at church that God would lead and guide me and give me a place of my own. :-) Yes, God answers prayers. Shows that He cares about even the little things in our lives but He does things in His time!!!

I think back over the last couple years and I'm amazed that God has over time given me so many things that I now need and I can mark those costs off my list. Someday some of it will be replaced but that is OK and God will make a way. Funny to think back 3 years and realize how unhappy and miserable I was single and then God led me right to a church where my singleness is celebrated, they don't care! Gives you the feeling that someone does care. I don't have to have a family to be important to God and to be used of God. Amazing!!!

It's been a loooooooooong time since I sat down at a computer and dreamed knowing it's going to slowly unfold and plan out what I want. Sigh!!!

So follow me the next few months, maybe years. HAHA. As I begin to build my dream and live out a part of life I never thought would happen.

So time for catch up blog. LOL

So much has happened since I last wrote a blog. I’m so blessed by God, He amazes me!!!

Incredible to realize that we are 1 month into 2012 already WOW!!!

So, I’ll start with we had great holidays and then I promptly got really sick, still fighting this mess off. Like a really bad cold. It’s a viral infection and just hangs on forever.

Lost my help at work and regained it quickly. The 2 weeks of extra hours wasn’t too shabby. LOL. Especially with what I’ve gotten myself into now. Hehe

So I looked around at houses for sale and rent, checked out apartments and then unfinished cabins. I’m buying an unfinished cabin and placing it on my parents property. It will be delivered end of February or first of March and I’ll be ready to start on the inside. It’s 16x30 so it’ll be a nice size and I’ll have a bedroom, bathroom in the back and the kitchen/dining & Living area will be in the front part of it. I’m pretty excited. The reason for my decision is it will be paid off in 3 years. A house note would be around 30 years. If I get married, I can rent out my cabin. So that is the plan.

Starting out I have 2 HUGE things to begin with, getting my cabin and we have to have a new electric line put in. Could cost up to $1700, just some pocket change right?? LOL. But Stephanie is in the Little House and Teresa is getting her and Katy a cabin also. So we will all be pitching in and so the cost of the pole won’t be so hard on just 1 person and we will all be splitting the electric bill.

I’m excited. I’ve wanted my own place for a long time and was too scared to actually step out and do it. This way I’m close to my family and yet have my own space.  It will look like I want it to look and it may take me a couple years to finish it all out but that is OK.

My plan is to get the bedroom area finished FAST. Walls and ceiling up, electric ran and finished to that room, I have a window unit already and get all that insulated. I can then move in and finish it out slowly but surely. I want it to all be perfect yet just how I want it.

Now to just plan wisely to make the $$ stretch. LOL

2012 is almost HERE!!!

I can not believe it is almost 2012. Incredible!!! 2011 flew by way too fast yet too slow. LOL. Been some ups but a few lows too. So much changed in our life, for good and bad. Dad's sickness and yet I experienced so many "healings" in my life!!!

Last year I don't think I even made any resolutions and this year, I think I will change that this year. I can't even begin to share it all.

So this year I want to find a closer walk with God, to just let it all go and just serve Him with everything in me. More prayer and reading His Word, to stay involved in my local church. Reach out more to those that are hurting and searching. Love more, judge less!!! I want to see God move in a deep and mighty way, I've seen it before and I want it again!!!

In my personal life, I'm asking God to help me gain control of my life better, He helped me last year but I want more this year. I have learned to be happy in my singleness and though I don't grin and celebrate all the time, (I still hate baby and wedding showers) I am OK now. So I want to find a way to take control of my stress and not let food control my emotions, not be the answer to my bad/sad days. I need strength from God to help me stay with a healthy diet and exercise!!! So come income tax return I'm buying the Xbox Kinect. Hopefully the fun will help. Haha

Whew!! Been busy as a bee.

Lots of life being lived and loved!!!

Been very busy with church ministries, conferences, work and most importantly home!!!

Thinking on selling the horse, no time to work with him. I just stay sooooo busy. Got alot coming up and can't wait to see what God has for my future. Just a short blog to let you know I'm not dead, just really crazy busy.

Easter 2011

What a Day!!!!!

Started out really early this morning alarm went off at 5:30am. LOL. Yea!! I know it's way early!!! Sound check was at 8:15 this morning and then a Easter Service that was awesome. The kiddos did great with the puppets, praise team and choir, I love hearing kids sing they are so honest and sincere, and of course over the top in cuteness!!!

Our Encounter video, that video just makes me cry, there I go before my encounter. Just everyday life with everyday people and then one day EVERYDAY changed because a unique and awesome God turned my life upside down. It was "my encounter"

The choir and sign team and then a dynamic message from our Pastor!!! All roads lead to the cross...
It was so cool to look out and see almost all of my family in the audience, aunts and cousins and family. Really fun!!!

We baptized 1 girl today, it was a overall great Easter Service.

Then after visiting with friends we headed home to have a scrumpcious dinner with all our family. We were missing 1 group. It makes my heart sad, even in all the fun and happiness, there is a empty place. God knows I've prayed over this and He has heard my cry. I wrote this last night and posted it I feel like changing it, maybe it's God leading me, maybe I'm just weird. I've been close to a few ladies at church and they have shown me a godly, prayful woman can do, I am trying to follow their leading and I respect them greatly.

So today I'm gonna be different.

God, this morning I come before you humble and broken, I know I'm nothing without you. I ask that you reach down and touch my family. Heal the broken pieces of our hearts and lives. You see all things, you know our hearts even the parts we don't know ourselves. You see our pasts and you know the hurt and trials this family has endured in the past. You see all our imperfections and you care and you love. I know that You know what it takes to bring a family to their knees in order to stand tall for you. God I ask right now that you bless and hold close every member. I rebuke the bitterness and the pain and the hurt in Jesus Name. I refuse to allow the devil to come in and lay claim to my family. I plead the blood over every adult and child. You see the pain You hear our pleas and You see our tears and You feel our pain. Lead us to peace and joy and love. God right now I ask that You stop those that try to bring harm or pain, When they rise up, block their path. I once again ask that You bless each person and bring love and unity to every part. I

I know what our family could be, look what we've become in just the last year or so and the devil HATES it, he wants us stopped. He's wanted to stop us because he knows if he doesn't find a way to drag us down he will lose because we want to work for You and that we are willing to serve in any way no matter how big or small. I'm asking that you foil his plans, destroy them!!! He is a liar, and he thinks he can play the same little trick in our family again but I say NO, I will stand up against him if I'm all alone, he WILL NOT DESTORY MY FAMILY!!! I sick and tired of his antics and games, I have given my life to Christ, I've renewed my vows to God and I will serve him with my whole heart, wherever He leads me I'm going, if a door closes I will stop, if a door opens I will go through that door regardless of where it leads me because I only want what You, God, want for me. I believe at that Ladies Prayer meeting you directed a sister to come and pray over me not only concerning my health but when she begin to pray over my future and the direction for my life. That doors would close and to not fear, let them close and stop and not walk through them. That the new doors that would open would be greater than anything I could imagine and to not fear but to walk through those doors as you open them. To let nothing stop me. That the plans YOU have for my life were unfolding before me right now and I can't see it yet but soon. So I know that You care and are listening to my heartfelt prayer.

Now God, I wait on You, your the healer and the provider. I ask it all in Jesus Name.  Amen.

New Year and Moving Forward

So I decided to start the New Year off right, I get so frustrated with people who lag behind and are lazy, etc. Plus, I've been so busy the last couple of months that I've not been able to keep up with my stuff, gets out of control and then my OCD can't figure it all out. Sooo,  I decided to turn over a new leaf if you will. I am trying to get to bed earlier and when my alarm goes off at 6am, I don't hit the snooze. This is Day 3 of this newness and I want to snuggle back down in my bed but I'm not. My room is nice, clean and organized and getting to the point I want it. I'll just keep on trudging and maybe it will become habit and not a drag. LOL.

This week is a week of prayer at church and OMW!!! What an awesome prayer meeting. I was so awesome to see the young people really praying, and it was nice to take out an hour at church to just pray. So many things in my life I've been praying about lately and sometimes I get a little discouraged because as I pray about things, seems others begin to begin to talk down to my dreams. They may not know it but they do. We aren't going to all be alike and we aren't all going to have the same ideas, but it's not right to expect me to be like you and the rest can do as they will. I'm not like you... I get so frustrated about it all and I just do not understand.

Then at the end of prayer Pastor Foster called us all to the front and began to challenge us to be closer to God, to desire miracles and powerful things, the anointing. Then he asked me to come up, ME. He said that God is going to do what I've been praying about, that at that moment it was to give me an assurance. I hate being in front of everyone but Sis Kathy & Sis Darla began to pray with me and I am still amazed that God cares that much!!! To call me out in a prayer meeting to let me know He still hears and cares and I'm not all alone. Now to just focus on moving forward!!! Waiting for my miracle.